MY 1ST OFFICIAL BLOG....

FOLLOW THE WHITE RABBIT

My life has been one of those episode's of Seinfeld,

combined with the world of Alice ( Alice In Wonderland).

and a little of Coraline....

It's pretty weird. I know.

Growing up I've always thought I was different,

girls my age playing barbie, singing, dancing,

laughing. Me, Well, I cannot say am exactly

the opposite of them, I laugh, Sing, Dance,

laughing, Happy.. - (all the normal stuff

girls do growing up)... Only the difference is,

I have a vision of things all the time...mostly

in my dreams. I think children do. I am sure

at least 70% of kids has this phase in their childhood

where they imagine things, (imaginary friend)...

they dream of things.. (nightmares).. then

they forget about them when they grow old.

Well, I am no different from them, only mine

didn't go away,

Dragons, giant butterflies, snakes that talks,

I dreamt one time I was Noah building an

ark, I was a dragon only I cannot spite fire...

list of those continues...

I should have been a childrens book author.

I think I'd be good at it.. but I like to keep

it to myself, until now.

They say all dreams people have are the

reflections of their subconscious...

that they are pigment of their imaginations

when they are awake.I believe that, only mine

does not rest. It's like a childrens book-mind..

(thats what my parents used to tell me).

Lately, I have been dreaming of my boyfriend

being chased by a giant one eyed -mushroom...

(thats like 4 times already this week)...

What the hell does that mean?

People always give me this BOOK OF DREAMS.

It's just one way of saying " hey you're a weirdo

interpret your dream for once... so you'll have

an idea what they mean" (they give that to me

for christmas, bdays, graduations)... I am pretty

sure one of these days I will have my own libary

filled with Dream Interpretation Books.

But see, for years now, I never really ask myself

what are those dreams mean?. I take it as it is.

When giant mushroom is chasing my boyfriend,

I laugh, coz I think it's funny. But then it became

regular in my dream session, and am starting

to panic now.. like is that like a bad thing?

What do mushroom represents? One eyed?

Last time I check, mushroom do not have eyes

or eye.

Few things I notice now that am on my 30's..

my dreams become more vivid and detailed.

I thought when I was a kid, it was detailed

enough that I'd freak my parents out when I

tell them my dreams.. but No, now is

like wayyyyy waaayy.... colorful, weirder,

and ...well not scary anymore. Its like

Alice's world.. only am " alive in flesh".

Reading Alice in Wonderland for like

at least 40 times now, I always felt like

she tells my story. I feel like am not alone.

That she and I are together on this...

its a subtle way of saying. " You have me

in your dream and in reality".